Friday, February 22, 2008

Split in two


So I've finally done it. My 90 days of world transfer over, I ported my main character back to his home server. I know at one time or another (or many many times over) i'm going to kick myself for splitting my time between two servers. I really don't see any other way though. I mean, this game for me isn't about seeing how powerful i can become, or to say i finished every mission, but to spend time with people (albeit online) that i love and care about. I originally transferred to follow some friends, but to say a final 'goodbye' to my friends on the original server just wouldn't be me. I hate to leave relationships broken. Even in the jobs that i've worked at, i can say that i've fought with almost everyone at one time or another. Spend enough time with people, and fights happen. I am proud to say, however, that i've also made it up to everyone i've fought with. I'm just like that. I can't walk away, can't just say 'goodbye.'
How can you say to one group of people, "You're special to me, important, and valuable," and to another group, who was just as much a part of your life, "Beat it, I found something better." I tried to pick one or the other, and it just doesn't work for me. I value relationships and i value people. I think there's been too many broken and burned bridges in people's lives, and i surely don't want to be more cause for that. It's hard enough for people to put down their protective walls around their personal space and life. I know. I have a hard time myself. It's difficult when you've been let down, disappointed, and hurt your whole life. We all have.
I know it's just a game, but somehow, through it all, we all build a bridge of trust and friendship that comes from communicating and spending time together. (and in some cases, mortal enemies =/) It's crazy i know. Crazy, crazy, crazy. Somehow i'll find a balance in it... somewhere out there. lol

1 comment:

Alshandra said...

welcome back love, we missed you <3