Merry Christmas??? =/

It's that time of year... again... woot?

*sigh

please let me know when it's the middle of January, when all the retardation of the so-called holidays are over! lol well, that's my flesh talking...and yes, this time of year makes me very very very uncomfortable. VERY VERY! All of the shopping, and planning, and getting together with people you dislike to varying degrees. It's all so... soo.... :3

Y'no what though? i do believe to a certain extent... as much as i dislike the way i feel at this time, that this is good for me.

/slap

What did i say?
oh...well let me try to explain (read: try not to feel as dumb)
This time is about basically one thing: others...
It's a very simple, but very difficult thing to grasp, especially for us who live in the modern world where everything is focused on tantalizing our senses, which is another way of the world/media/etc. telling us that we are number one. Not only in a good sense, but that what we feel and want is more important than anything else. Hey its the best way to sell something if you can convince people that they 'need' it. Anyway, this business of 'others' (and not the zombies who took over your family members, your dog, and aunt suzie) is so foriegn, so 'out-there' to us...it makes us very uncomfortable. i mean... i don't see the point in the months of planning, prodigious amounts of money spent, and the heartache, effort, and many times, disappointment put into making Christmas Christmas.

When God sent down his son to this earth, (which incidentally no one who really knows belives was Dec. 24 wtf?) it was the ultimate sacrifice, the epitome of giving. It wasn't for God's direct benefit, but for yours and mine. Yes, yes, God does benefit when we get to heaven, cause he gets his family back, but really? It's for us. =) We can live, move, breathe,and have super-abundance because HE chose to give.

Giving ain't easy, and if it is... you prolly aren't giving something dear/close or something that you gave your life/breath/and being for. The hardest part is thinking, yes i can see the smoke already! It is! To get to know someone intimately, know their wants/dreams/desires and to go the extra mile to make that person feel special in an original, unique way is HARD!
Give me a choice and i'd rather give you 50 bucks rather than plan a special evening where i spent 10. It's the time/money factor... and creating an atmosphere in which someone can be comfortable, safe, and feel special takes a hella lot of time! Incidentally its the only thing we all have the same amount of! which suggests why it don't take money to be happy. (i'm particularly happy about that one)
The reason I love to give money because i have an understanding of what getting that money meat to me. It meant staying up all night watching over other people's parents and grandparents... it meant running up that burning hillside when i was too tired to breathe...it meant months of preparation to get where i am today...it means being ready every day i go to work to meet my maker...


So... what man?

/think

So... relish the moment! See how what you're giving has an effect on the people around you. Have a vision for what it may mean in the future.... most importantly, when you feel like giving up, like its just too much to bear, like you just want to take care of YOU!.... remember that HE loves you, and before you gave, HE gave, and everything that you go through, HE knows, HE feels... because HE's your father... and i hear he gives free cheerio's to cool ppl...